Say you tried, so I can at least say you lied.
Each time you sighed, right while I cried.
What are we left with besides wounded pride?
The tears have dried, but that doesn’t remove the feelings inside.
You try your best to hide, saying you can’t decide but what happened to those promises, the ones by which I abide?
If I could tell the girl I was last year a piece of advice it would be to listen to mom, stop getting discouraged, go for what YOU want, and DON’T STOP WRITING.
Firstly, I would say “listen to mom” because she kept telling me to sort my feelings and stay single. By not listening to her I ended up losing myself in a relationship and being pushed further away from what I had initially wanted. Also, not listening to my mom pushed me away from her also. I focused most of my time on a boy that now I can’t even see myself with.
Secondly, I would say “don’t get discouraged” because doing so resulted in me not achieving the things I should have. Becoming discouraged distorted my view of my own abilities. A lot of times I would feel down because I felt I wasn’t good enough to do the things I wanted to or be with the people I wanted to be around. The more I became self conscious the more I would changed my mind about what I wanted. I would constantly lower my standards and go for what seemed more attainable. Had I been more bold and confident there would be no need for me to be writing this or thinking about what I’ve missed out on.
Thirdly, I would say “go for what you want” because I’ve realized that no matter what you do in life there will always be people against it. The people that matter are the ones who continue to accept you for who you are and help you better yourself. Conforming for the sake of others has always been my down fall and as a result I have many times seen people receive what I DESERVED simply because I would not go get it.
Lastly, I would say “don’t stop writing” because me without writing is me without inspiration. When I am in a good state of being anything can inspire me. The less I write the more things I have built up inside and those things just cloud my eyes from seeing the beauty of life. Not seeing the wonderful things life brings makes me negative, depressed, and self-destructive. That’s what I was last year.
Looking back now I now I can’t sit here and regret, all I can do is move forward and take this advice. We sometimes fail to realize how much we’ve changed until we reflect and introspect.
They say we’re going nowhere fast but I’d rather be anywhere with you than somewhere without you, slowly… missing you.
There’s so much to say but not enough time, in a day.
Every chance taken results in not even the littlest sway.
I wanna get away, from… You.
What am I to do when I cant escape these crazy ass thoughts and every minute invested
keeps my heart arrested.
So little time to get out this frame of mind but you got me in a bind
and it’s one I cant define.
All I know is your the one I can’t seem to leave behind.
You’re like climbing the drug ladder the more I look and take the more addicted and affected it makes… Me.
Seems like I’m so confused, dont wanna end up with a heart battered and abused but this is a battle I didn’t get to choose,
can’t refuse to let you be free because in the end a smile is worth the while but let a bitch hurt you and I’ll leave her in denial,
deep sea breathing in the Nile.
Like ” who did this, what happened, how the hell did I end up in this entrapment?”
But I’ll be sure to let her know didn’t start your life bitch but I’m about to see everything in you flow… Out.
Because you tried to play with something protected, now your ass can’t even stand erected.
How does it feel? Yeah your death bitch! Is it worse than you ever hoped for or expected?!
Ha ha, cut you up with a chainsaw now imma put your ass in a freezer take you out and let your brain thaw.
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I miss you <3
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